Why become close to anyone? Everyone eventually turns into someone you once knew and loved. You can’t become too attached or love someone too much, because it all ends up hurting you. I keep my distance because jealousy just isn’t my style. I’m sick of loving and losing. It seems the confliction isn’t really worth it in the end; you’re only left hurt and with fond memories. But the memories are just as agonizing because they take you back to something you know that you can never have again. Those feelings, all that you were wrapped up in, and the person you once were: gone. And it’s true that once you’ve lost something, you never really get it back in its original condition. It will all have changed the second time around. I don’t care about the change, but I just want to be comforted by the fact that something pure will always be there.

I might look back and realize how many people have walked in and out of my life and tell myself not to become too attached, but I’m not giving up because eventually… someone will stay. I keep telling myself that. It’s really all I have.