February 2012
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she-whispers:
A lot of people settle because they believe that whatever they have, is as good as it gets for them. But when was the last time you thought to yourself “man, me two years ago, that was the happiest I could ever be”? because happiness is never replaced, nor does it stop after you reach “happiest”. It’s constant. You just get happier and happier, so why settle when life is supposed...
September 2011
1 post
August 2011
5 posts
Why does my heart shatter at odd hours? It’s like I become crazy once the clock strikes midnight. Or maybe I become sane and realize all my wrong doings? Christ. I need someone to relate to. I need someone… Maybe I just need drugs for fucksake.
I need to save myself.
It’s crazy how something so wonderful can end so quickly. And to lose everything you once had with someone and to unfortunately be nothing more than strangers to one another is what is most heartbreaking. But time does its healing, you just have to really hang in there and be patient. Because someday you’re going to find your perfect person that fits not all, but most (or a good equivalent)...
yanrwtb:
I’ve resorted to being heartless so I’d be able to use my heart less and I’ve been loveless as a feeble attempt to love less.
July 2011
4 posts
For a while, I enjoyed the climb. But the sudden drop that followed was so fast, I could not even get a grasp of what the fuck was happening. I can still feel myself tumbling down this bottomless pit. This needs to stop.
monsta:
I miss real, genuine human interaction. The haunting stuff that doesn’t require social lubricants like drugs and alcohol. Where did all of the interesting people go?
Sometimes things don’t go as planned. And then life goes on. I seem to keep forgetting that. I win a lot and lose very little. I only focus on the negatives because I am so used to having things my way.
When a girl gets her period, it’s such a release because everything they’ve been holding onto emotionally and ahem.. physically, gets dumped out of their system. Literally and figuratively. It’s like a renewal. It’s natural, and it’s what makes us better at dealing with our emotions. Better than men, that is, because we have some sort of somewhat consistent (at its...
June 2011
12 posts
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bryanjayy:
there are so many retarded filipinos on here that make me so ashamed to be filipino
This is what makes me who I am.
Fears: being average, having an average job and an average husband and two average kids who don’t really appreciate me, opening myself up, my best isn’t good enough, I’m not as special as I think I am
Dreams: working at a job that always changes where I have the opportunity to do things nobody has before, traveling the world, continuing to try new things, having a man to love,...
My friend is really depressed because his girlfriend broke up with him. If anything, they’ll be back together within a week. And if not, he’ll move on and she’ll move on, and this will be just another trivial day in the history of one’s life. I’ve lost the emotional capacity for empathy. Or I’m just really tired of pretending to care. If it happened to me,...
The past two weeks have been what would seem to be surreal. It’s the same feeling that you get when you’ve stayed up for too long without sleep. You start talking in your mind with a British accent and you make up weird nicknames for yourself and you think you hear things when it’s just your imagination taking a few creative liberties.
Some sort of drunken drug trip...
Everyone is kind of disgusting. And it’s despicable. And I have no tolerance or sense of empathy, because I turn a blind eye to myself.
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Those drunken sluts can go rot in some dark alley south of Paris, future alcoholic bitches. Have fun wasting your money and your lives.
I’m getting bored of these thoughts that I’ve been having. I wonder if anyone even bothers to read my stuff, anyway. But I still post here… for reference purposes. I think I am going to start documenting more of my life here while the memories are fresh. I might move to a different blogging website. I like change.
I have my flaws along with my share of mistakes, and ultimately, I am the one that makes my own decisions, not my friends. They never mend mine. But whether we like it or not, our friends have a lot to do with what type of accommodation we make. In a relationship, there is so much compromising, which leads to a great amount of compensation. And trust is a major factor. Honesty doesn’t mean...
One thing that I’ve noticed on tumblr is the increasing redundancy among bloggers. Replete unoriginality, biters galore, and I am unimpressed. I follow and unfollow accordingly, pressing that diversity is key. It is okay to be inspired, just don’t be a biter.
Personally my main goal here is to try and express my own interests coherently— whether or not people read them is secondary.
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I (finally) acknowledged my attitude problem. I guess this could possibly be one of my greatest flaws. Lately, a lot of people have been picking fights with me over the most trivial things. It really bugged the shit out of me. The fights didn’t faze me so much, but it just bugged me that people kept telling me that I need to change. The recent fights occurred because of my attitude. I am a...
May 2011
20 posts
More often, I find myself wishing you lived a whole lot closer. Close enough that I could run out of my house, jump in my car, drive to your street, knock on your door, crawl into your lap, and just let the scent of your neck comfort me.
Lately, I have been doing a lot of job and internship hunting. I’ve had a few offers, but I’m still jobless. I wonder if I am really in the position to be this selective. Anyway, there are a ton of things that I am proud of. I’m trying to stay positive by reminding myself of these things.. I’m not sure why it isn’t working though. I hate being this emo(tional). God, I...
It’s weird when the love goggles kick in its bliss and it’s not something you really think about. But damn it hurts when they’re torn off.
The problem is if you go in guarded and thinking that way, you’ll never let yourself love someone else. Not only is this unfair on the other person, it leaves you feeling empty inside (and more than a little shitty if you have any...
Why become close to anyone? Everyone eventually turns into someone you once knew and loved. You can’t become too attached or love someone too much, because it all ends up hurting you. I keep my distance because jealousy just isn’t my style. I’m sick of loving and losing. It seems the confliction isn’t really worth it in the end; you’re only left hurt and with fond memories. But the...
I don’t think I could ever forget that feeling. The feeling only you gave me. You made me insane. It was horrible for my health.
I miss it sometimes, but then I remember that the winter always comes back and brings along the loneliness that held us together. You never made me better. You held me in place with a few good intentions and not to mention the talk that we kept forbidden. I really...
I don’t perceive things like I’m supposed to. I don’t want to be like them. I’m not them. We’re all growing up to be the people that we promised we wouldn’t become. You’re turning out to be that hypocrite that you swore to never be. I think I’m going to be very disappointed.
I have this theory. But it has evolved into a belief, which is to say, an optimistic type of hope.
I am something other than normal. I mean, everyone believes that they’re unique and special and all that bullshit, but a gander over at Facebook shows the opposite. In fact, it literally makes me see how not normal I am. Not normal, for not wanting to play mind games with people. Not normal,...
I find it so strange how I still think about Junethea. I’m sure most of the people that were so hyped up about her last month have forgotten about her already. I didn’t know her personally, but she still manages to pop up in my mind every so often. I check the tags on tumblr and I visit her memorial page on Facebook occassionally. And even when I’m in the middle of doing...
Put me into a deep sleep and please don’t wake me until I can no longer feel empathy.
Indecent Exposure
I have a nasty habit of secluding myself when it comes to relationships. Unbeknownst to my knowledge, I’ve built a wall to shut people out. After continuously being hurt, I’ve adapted a habit of barricading myself behind an unbreakable wall of trust. I’ve found this wall as a way to keep myself guarded and safe from further heart breaks. Many people have tried to scale my wall trying to find a way...
Your girlfriend is a superficial bitch, and I have to say.. I would love to beat the shit out of her.
What is love like? It’s like a rainstorm that you’ll never be afraid of. It’s a rainstorm that you’re not afraid to walk in. You take the long way because no one’s in a rush.
It’s something promised today, tomorrow, and the next day, like a summer love that lasts all four seasons. It’s a beautiful somewhere—a place where you’ll always return....
They say high school is known as your golden years, but I’ve been feeling quite blue for the last four years.
There’s a spot I go to whenever I’m feeling down or undecided about something… far away from home, and so close to you…
And you thought we stopped being close.
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These nerds at school were talking about the Playoffs, and one dude says, “I want Miami to win. Who do they have? … Dwyane Wade, and who else?” ‘TF?! They are most controversial team, and you don’t even know that they have LeBron and Chris Bosh, too?
If any person can’t even name their team’s starting roster then you’re a bandwagon fan.
Some people are truly ignorant. You don’t care about Osama’s death? In case you’ve been living under a rock or something, he was the most wanted terrorist in the world. He was the mass murderer behind attacks on 9/11 that killed thousands of innocent people. And you don’t care? You may not care, but think about the families that lost loved ones. If you lost a loved one,...
April 2011
12 posts
1 tag
Why do you feel the need to constantly criticize and bitch about what other girls are doing, what they wear, or how they act? Bitch please, preaching about how you’re better than them and how you’re so ”different” than all the other girls doesn’t make you any better. You’re so full of yourself. You must have pretty low self confidence if you have to talk shit...
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Apparently, everyone and their mommas went to watch Fast Five last night.. And afterwards, they had a mini car meet outside of the theater.
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Women are unstable and unwilling to compromise. Is it fair that I’m always negotiating on their terms? Female friendships have gone awry…
You’re not a man. You’re a petty little bitch.